I didn't keep an eye out on Rail, and while I was setting something up, she got killed. Then, when we were worried talking or texting might put us in danger, I started writing, but that must have been too loud too, since it got us then.
yeah, i think you make a good point about all that. it's probably not a good idea to make any noise. and everyone should try to keep as out of sight as possible. i dunno how much it'll help, but it's something. but don't blame yourself too much, okay? i don't think it's your fault.
it's hard not to feel guilty about stuff like that. y'know, like, you ask yourself 'what if i did that instead?' 'what if i didn't do this?' 'what if..?' 'what if..?' but... it's in the past, and if you wanna make up for it you gotta do stuff in the present and the future, not keep looking back at it and all the things you coulda done.
ah, sorry... i guess that's been on my mind a lot...
Just make sure that it's not only the present. You should always try to make sure that there's a tomorrow, even if you're not sure what it's going to bring.
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branchandroot
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Date: 2015-10-05 03:07 pm (UTC)you there?
you're back now, right?
are you awake?
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Date: 2015-10-05 03:40 pm (UTC)Did we win?
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Date: 2015-10-06 12:31 am (UTC)i'm sorry.
i'm really, really sorry.
there wasn't enough time, i didn't get to finish before everyone
[ He doesn't finish the sentence but it might be easy to guess what he'd meant. ]
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Date: 2015-10-06 12:36 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2015-10-08 07:49 pm (UTC)i mean, you don't have to talk about it if you don't wanna but...
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Date: 2015-10-09 01:13 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2015-10-13 06:53 pm (UTC)it's probably not a good idea to make any noise.
and everyone should try to keep as out of sight as possible.
i dunno how much it'll help, but it's something.
but don't blame yourself too much, okay?
i don't think it's your fault.
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Date: 2015-10-14 01:36 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2015-10-15 10:50 pm (UTC)y'know, like, you ask yourself 'what if i did that instead?' 'what if i didn't do this?' 'what if..?' 'what if..?'
but... it's in the past, and if you wanna make up for it you gotta do stuff in the present and the future, not keep looking back at it and all the things you coulda done.
ah, sorry...
i guess that's been on my mind a lot...
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Date: 2015-10-16 12:59 am (UTC)It sounds like you must have gone through something like that too.
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Date: 2015-10-17 11:05 pm (UTC)yeah.
i mean, it still comes up with the games, y'know?
but mostly it's about a friend of mine i lost.
but i'm more focused on the present now too!
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Date: 2015-10-24 01:19 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2015-10-25 10:09 pm (UTC)even if it's scary, you gotta keep going.
you can't give up.
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Date: 2015-10-26 01:41 am (UTC)Just take care, okay?
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Date: 2015-10-28 11:46 pm (UTC)you too.